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Lauren Hawkins | 21 | female | bi
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Hawklands : MTG Alter Art
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My interests: art, video games, animation, cosplay, modeling, anime, video games, comics, conventions, and video games.
also cute animals and dinosaurs.

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3 days ago
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Last piece of my satyr costume for Ren Fest is complete! Pics of the whole costume coming soon

Last piece of my satyr costume for Ren Fest is complete! Pics of the whole costume coming soon

5 days ago
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aicosu:

belaerous:

necroticnymph:

Hello my lovely Tumblr Family! I’ve reached 1000 followers by my birthday! As such, I’ll be doing another giveaway!

What you’ll win:

~The Thermoplastic Combo in Large from CosplaySupplies.com

This includes:

1 sheet of Wonderflex 43” x 27” and
1 sheet of Worbla 29” x 39”

~If you’re following me, I’ll buy you a 4.4oz bottle of Friendly Plastic to go with it, too.

Please read all of the rules before entering.

***There will be only 1 winner!***

Rules:

- You must REBLOG this post. LIKES don’t count!

- You don’t need to be following me (but you’ll win more stuff if you are!)

- No Giveaway blogs allowed…because that’s just tacky ;) Side/cosplay-only blogs are okay.

- Reblog as much as you want, but let’s keep from spamming our friends, hm?

Winner Details:

- Ask box MUST be open, and you have to be willing to give your address. I’m not a creeper, I promise ;)

- Contest ends on May 22nd. I’ll announce the winner on May 22nd at 6:30pm EST.

- If your ask box isn’t open, I’ll pick another winner. Winner will be chosen with a random number generator.

One stipulation: this post has to reach 1000 notes! Happy blogging, and good luck!!!

Worth a shot. Always good to have more crafting supplies.

I will never say no to a chance at Worbla!

2 weeks ago
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Finished deer thing… nut sure if happy with it… May try another type of animal… Let me know if you like this and think I should sculpt it

Finished deer thing… nut sure if happy with it… May try another type of animal… Let me know if you like this and think I should sculpt it

2 weeks ago
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Plush Robo concept for my friend’s band Go, Robo! Go!

Plush Robo concept for my friend’s band Go, Robo! Go!

2 weeks ago
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Surreal deer thing sketch. Inspired by the work of Ellen Jewett. I may end up sculpting this beastie. We’ll see :3

Surreal deer thing sketch. Inspired by the work of Ellen Jewett. I may end up sculpting this beastie. We’ll see :3

3 weeks ago
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whimmy-bam:

sirileigh:

prllnce:

meggchan:

Mine is mostly cognitive.

I have all three. Well oops.

Dammit! So do I!

No one has said this yet, so I feel I must.
THANK YOU FOR THIS.
So many people don’t seem to understand that social anxiety can manifest itself in multiple ways. Some people will just dismiss that you have social anxiety if you don’t fit into what they perceive it to be, and that lack of understanding can be really hurtful. So thank you for this.
(And as my personal comment, I fit into behavioural and cognitive.)

idk if i consider my anxiety social, because its not strictly in social situations, but i have generalized anxiety disorder. It’s hard to explain to people because they always ask “what are you anxious about?” and i don’t exactly know what brings it on because i don’t have any conscious awareness of cognitive anxiety symptoms, about 95% of mine is physical.
It’s very frustrating because, for example, i can be driving, and someone cuts in front of me, and my thoughts go “oh, what a dick” and move on. but my BODY decides “NO SHIT THAT MOTHERFUCKER WHAT DID HE JUST OH MY GOD” and my heart starts racing and my arms start shaking and i start to feel light headed. it happens with lots of things in my daily life, things that i don’t consciously feel anxious about, but cause severe physical, sometimes debilitating symptoms, the worst being my muscles contracting and locking up… its painful.
anyways, thank you for this chart. and i hope now maybe some of my friends and acquaintances might have a better idea of what i mean when i say i have anxiety with physical symptoms :3

whimmy-bam:

sirileigh:

prllnce:

meggchan:

Mine is mostly cognitive.

I have all three. Well oops.

Dammit! So do I!

No one has said this yet, so I feel I must.

THANK YOU FOR THIS.

So many people don’t seem to understand that social anxiety can manifest itself in multiple ways. Some people will just dismiss that you have social anxiety if you don’t fit into what they perceive it to be, and that lack of understanding can be really hurtful. So thank you for this.

(And as my personal comment, I fit into behavioural and cognitive.)

idk if i consider my anxiety social, because its not strictly in social situations, but i have generalized anxiety disorder. It’s hard to explain to people because they always ask “what are you anxious about?” and i don’t exactly know what brings it on because i don’t have any conscious awareness of cognitive anxiety symptoms, about 95% of mine is physical.

It’s very frustrating because, for example, i can be driving, and someone cuts in front of me, and my thoughts go “oh, what a dick” and move on. but my BODY decides “NO SHIT THAT MOTHERFUCKER WHAT DID HE JUST OH MY GOD” and my heart starts racing and my arms start shaking and i start to feel light headed. it happens with lots of things in my daily life, things that i don’t consciously feel anxious about, but cause severe physical, sometimes debilitating symptoms, the worst being my muscles contracting and locking up… its painful.

anyways, thank you for this chart. and i hope now maybe some of my friends and acquaintances might have a better idea of what i mean when i say i have anxiety with physical symptoms :3

(Source: a-disgruntled-jedi)

4 weeks ago
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nilsander:

These stunning hooved shoes are by KantiKane.

I love them to bits and I want them so badly and I may just have to make them. <3

i wanted some of hers, but when i couldnt get ahold of her and then found out she stopped taking commissions, i decided to make my own >:D 

i also do paws, gonna be doin some dog paws over the summer on commission. and they can be cleaned up same way she does with leggings :3 i just like fur. alot. i’ve heard great things about hers but from what i understand she’s now focusing on mermaid prosthetics. if anyone wants hooves i can make them :3

(Source: faunils)

4 weeks ago
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zoocanvas:

From The Art of Animal Drawing by Ken Hultgren

4 weeks ago
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LOOK WHAT I GOT TODAY! meet Ellie, the newest addition to our family :3 thank you Jessica for bringing her into our life (at Diesel Pizza)

LOOK WHAT I GOT TODAY! meet Ellie, the newest addition to our family :3 thank you Jessica for bringing her into our life (at Diesel Pizza)

1 month ago
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— TODAY MUST BE “GIVE LAUREN ANXIETY ATTACKS” DAY

BECAUSE EVERYONE KEEPS YELLING AT ME AND TWISTING MY WORDS AND GETTING MAD AND BEING DICKS.

WHAT DID I DO. I DON’T EVEN KNOW YOU.

BITCH NUMBA 1: YOU ALMOST HIT A DOG.
BITCH NUMBA 2: YOU WAS DRIVING THE WRONG WAY DOWN THE ROAD AND ALMOST CAUSED A WRECK.
BITCH NUMBA 3: GESTURE DRAWINS ARE NOT PORN.

DAYUM.

1 month ago
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030): What it means to be a Mentally Ill College Student

instrumentofintuition:

allacharade:

I am a college student at a top university. I also struggle with mood, anxiety, and dissociative disorders. This list reflects (some of) my experiences. It is what I want to send to my professor who is being stingy with extensions and far from understanding. But I can’t. Feel free to reblog, share, heck - even email out to your teachers. If you do, please let me know how that goes. And of course, please add your own if you have more to add.

I am a mentally ill college student:

It means that no matter how much sleep you manage to get, you can never guarantee being awake enough or focused enough for work.

It means not knowing if the same coffee drink will do nothing, work as it is supposed to, or make you anxious and jittery for hours.

It means checking every syllabus for the lateness and attendance policies not because you are lazy but because you have to prepare for the worst.


It means that pulling an all nighter can ruin your ability to think, sleep, and function for days to weeks and having to make that choice anyway.

It means feeling like your excuses aren’t valid because they are all in your head, and it means getting that fear validated over and over.

It means that when anything goes slightly wrong, everybody doubts if you deserve to be there, if you should be where you are, if you should get this kind of education, if you are “well” enough to engage with the rest of society.

It means fearing for your freedom, your financial, familial, and social support, and your health care in ways you probably can’t imagine.


It means that the counseling center looks at you funny and somewhat frightened when you ask for help because they are trained for “run of the mill” college problems and you are out of their league.

It means not being able to stay up when you need to and not being able to sleep even when you can. It means working not only when there’s time in your schedule, but when that happens to match up with when your brain is able to. It means not being master of your own time management.

It means not being able to explain this to any professor because they won’t look at you the same, hold your opinions in the same light, even if they do take you seriously.

It means that when I mean to take an hour long nap or a 20 minute break, I can’t be sure that those times will stay that way.

It means spending some evenings you know you should be working, even wanting to be working, convincing yourself to move, or that you are actually there, or just quieting your brain. It means using distractions as necessity.

It doesn’t mean just being overwhelmed every once in a while. It doesn’t mean I fooled around and spent too much time slacking off or partying. It doesn’t mean I just had a sucky week. It doesn’t mean I am letting my social problems interfere with my academics.

It means I have to keep things in mind constantly that you never have to think about. It means I have to make choices that you’ll never have to make, it means that when I am down to the wire, it is because I am pushing my self to my limit just to be there.

Because it doesn’t mean, not even remotely, that I am not devoted, that I’m not interest, that I’m not in love with learning. That I don’t want to impress you, to get my work done on time, to do a great job. It doesn’t mean I don’t deserve this. I doesn’t mean I should be locked away. It doesn’t mean I should have to pay for extra semesters of schooling out of pocket that no one will give me scholarship or tuition benefit for.

It means you should, probably, work with me, give me the time I need. Realize that your assessments should be based on my understanding, not my time management. It means you should try to understand.

yes. thank you.

reading this makes me feel… just really good that others have the same problems i have.

i’m so bad at putting things into words, i go to therapy and get reprimanded by my therapist for acting too much like my father by letting my voice get louder and louder as i try to explain how i feel and why i feel that way.

my mother keeps saying she worked through college, other kids work through college, but they didn’t have to do it with my issues, and they didn’t go to an art school that’s got an intensity comparable to any ivy league college. i’ve had to go part time alot because of either financial reasons of being unable to handle the work in addition to my issues, and the few times i do stay late at school to work and come home at 2, i get yelled out for being out too late. 

this quarter i had to drop out of a class i was really looking forward to and enjoying, because i couldn’t handle the high stress level of that class combined with the stress my mother unintentionally heaves onto me every single day. 

it hurts knowing the people closest to me, and the people trying to help me, can’t understand what i’m going through, and sometimes it makes me feel hopeless, but just… knowing that other people go through the same things gives me a little glimmer of hope.
it makes me feel a little less alone in the world.

thank you.

1 month ago
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loreweaver:

geekgirl101:

marvel-confessions:

Confession #673
“I love the Avengers film, but I hate the changes it’s made to the comics. People have new costumes or looks just because they’ll br more “identifiable.” Like people won’t know who Captain America is if he doesn’t wear the exact armor in the comics that he does in the movie. Don’t event get me started on how they changed Nick Fury from black to white.”
-Anonymous

Um…Nick Fury was originally white, then they changed him to black, and then they changed him to white again.
Furthermore, I don’t think this is such a big deal, the core of the characters stays the same and  the costume hasn’t honestly changed that much. I liked how functional, Cap’s movie costume was compared to the comic book. It adds realism to the comic, in my opinion, stating, that even though its a comic books, the way this guy moves an what he wears is a practical aspect of his job, making it easier to maneuver and do his job. But that’s just me. 

Furthermore, mainline Marvelverse Nick Fury has always been white.  It’s Ultimate Fury and Movieverse Fury that are based on and played by Samuel L Jackson.

i feel as though we&#8217;ve gotten off-point from the original intent, which is to say that movies change comics. Some comics are good, and the movie makes them bad, other comics are bad, but people are tricked into liking them because they enjoy the movies. Let&#8217;s take iron man. Can anyone picture him not being robert downey jr anymore? It has been made CANON that that&#8217;s pretty much who iron man is! everybody LOVES iron man. at least, they think they do. but before the movies, before Robert brought his own charm to the character, iron man was a dull, flat character with little interest, with interesting things occasionally happening around him, but he himself was a dull underdeveloped character. movies change comics, sometimes good, sometimes bad, and they change people&#8217;s perception of comics too [it&#8217;s great if seeing the iron movie inspired you to read the comics and you now enjoy reading the old comics from before the movies, but most people who read the old comics, then saw the movies later, would argue that they suck. i have not met a single person who doesn&#8217;t argue that]There will always be people who love the old, and there will always be those that love the new, but the important thing is that we REMEMBER the old comics, remember why they were loved, remember the worldwide shift where everyone burned their comics, and remember the comeback that they have made, and that people are learning to love comics all over again, in big part because of these movies that are incomparable to the originals, but draw fans all the same.

loreweaver:

geekgirl101:

marvel-confessions:

Confession #673

“I love the Avengers film, but I hate the changes it’s made to the comics. People have new costumes or looks just because they’ll br more “identifiable.” Like people won’t know who Captain America is if he doesn’t wear the exact armor in the comics that he does in the movie. Don’t event get me started on how they changed Nick Fury from black to white.”

-Anonymous

Um…Nick Fury was originally white, then they changed him to black, and then they changed him to white again.

Furthermore, I don’t think this is such a big deal, the core of the characters stays the same and  the costume hasn’t honestly changed that much. I liked how functional, Cap’s movie costume was compared to the comic book. It adds realism to the comic, in my opinion, stating, that even though its a comic books, the way this guy moves an what he wears is a practical aspect of his job, making it easier to maneuver and do his job. But that’s just me. 

Furthermore, mainline Marvelverse Nick Fury has always been white.  It’s Ultimate Fury and Movieverse Fury that are based on and played by Samuel L Jackson.

i feel as though we’ve gotten off-point from the original intent, which is to say that movies change comics. Some comics are good, and the movie makes them bad, other comics are bad, but people are tricked into liking them because they enjoy the movies. Let’s take iron man. Can anyone picture him not being robert downey jr anymore? It has been made CANON that that’s pretty much who iron man is! everybody LOVES iron man. at least, they think they do. but before the movies, before Robert brought his own charm to the character, iron man was a dull, flat character with little interest, with interesting things occasionally happening around him, but he himself was a dull underdeveloped character. movies change comics, sometimes good, sometimes bad, and they change people’s perception of comics too [it’s great if seeing the iron movie inspired you to read the comics and you now enjoy reading the old comics from before the movies, but most people who read the old comics, then saw the movies later, would argue that they suck. i have not met a single person who doesn’t argue that]
There will always be people who love the old, and there will always be those that love the new, but the important thing is that we REMEMBER the old comics, remember why they were loved, remember the worldwide shift where everyone burned their comics, and remember the comeback that they have made, and that people are learning to love comics all over again, in big part because of these movies that are incomparable to the originals, but draw fans all the same.

1 month ago
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ohsnappysnu:

princeofthewildthings:

colt-kun:


To anyone in the Orlando/Kissimmee area:
Aiden found a baby kitten today, eyes barely opened, abandoned in a parking lot.
The vet looked her over and said she is healthy, two weeks old, and flea/worm free. We can take care of her for a few weeks until she’s a little older, but we can’t keep her. We already have two adopted kittens (4 weeks and 5 weeks) and a puppy.
if you or anyone you know can open their home to this poor baby, please contact one of us: Me, Aiden, or Eldi - or if you have friends in this area, reblog! She is free to a good home.


I can hold her in one hand!
Please signal boost this, guys. The little baby needs a permanent, loving home.

oh my god poor baby, ;v; If I was in the area I would
Signal Boost

ohsnappysnu:

princeofthewildthings:

colt-kun:

To anyone in the Orlando/Kissimmee area:

Aiden found a baby kitten today, eyes barely opened, abandoned in a parking lot.

The vet looked her over and said she is healthy, two weeks old, and flea/worm free. We can take care of her for a few weeks until she’s a little older, but we can’t keep her. We already have two adopted kittens (4 weeks and 5 weeks) and a puppy.

if you or anyone you know can open their home to this poor baby, please contact one of us: Me, Aiden, or Eldi - or if you have friends in this area, reblog! She is free to a good home.

I can hold her in one hand!

Please signal boost this, guys. The little baby needs a permanent, loving home.

oh my god poor baby, ;v; If I was in the area I would

Signal Boost

1 month ago
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Anonymous asked : So I happened to notice you seem pretty rad. I happen to dabble in radness a bit, myself. I think we should acquaint. So that creep that just added you on steam is me. Your art makes me miss figure drawing pretty intensely.

hahahaha omg did you find my FA page too XD lol. i had 2 unanswered invites, which one was yoo? :> hehe i’m glad my art makes you miss drawing!! drawing is good!!!

1 month ago
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fat-birds:

Chibii the Cockatiel Serenades Dora the Bunny.

Song List:
Hey Soul Sister - Train
Go Go power Rangers
Star Wars
Beat Boxing
Jeopardy

this is literally my favorite thing i have ever seen in my entire life.

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